today M asked me if i loved D. i didn't even hesitate. yes. yes, i do. it's not something that i wanted to happen. but it did. and i needed you to know.

she and i had lunch and watched the game with him today. and it was nice. so nice. and he said we should do it every sunday and it'd be our thing.

i don't want anything with him. i can honestly say that. i whole heartedly believe you can love someone while knowing that they are absolutely wrong for you. and that's where i am. i know i love him. and for right now, he's good for me. he's become one of my best friends. and he says the same thing. we do really care about each other.

i think the hardest part is the internal struggle. loving someone you know you don't want to be with.

but i love him. and i needed you to know.